Why does the love between Twin Flames feel so intense

The interesting part here is the intense love felt by the near death experiences of me (God) as yes I invented rather created love and always happy to share it with the dieing especially as I am wondering why this feeliong is not sought by my twin flame more often if I am as good as it gets why does God not have a perfect twin flame light why did I get the whore of babylon in I am not used to not having things go perfect but wait that has changed with her arrival out of the blue with the baggage she carried I may not be so great I suppose is the answer and I only believe I am great and one other does not I wish I could communicate this but I suspect I am an 11:11 victim where I am like the horse taken to water but didn't drink and all the mind control and rubbish dished out to me was by design the signs were there but I thought we could overcome anything but that was then and now is now and I have changed somewhat I burnt out or I may have improved but regardless I am not told and how can I guess anymore so wrong I have been before when only a phantom came for union then pissed me about until I was left for shit and treated with horror only I forgot about that manifestation only seeing the bright side but I was taken down the dark side I suppose not knowing if it was real anymore perhaps just an illusion I pissed off from that channel deciding on the work before as I was told in why do I have to be told how things should be then remember it was a program I thought I was placed in and one side of that program is I am alone left for dead and she is non resistant and someone else runs the program she is just the face of and we are all chained to the rhythm in nothing is very much fun anymore I am left a serious old man who missed out cause I was to fat and ugly to bother with and this perception is just more program to disrupt me